Minimalist

I have always been a Blogger user. The primary reason why I have stuck to Blogger is because of its functionality to use Google Adsense for free. The thing that I hate about it though is that template editing is not that simple and it’s themes are not as sleek as wordpress.

The past months I have decided to revive my blog after more than 3 years of hiatus (see here why I’ve been in hiatus). I wanted it to have new look. I am a different person now. I am simpler. I recently dyed my hair to black from being blonde because I realized being natural is what makes a person more beautiful. Anyways, since I am a new me, I want my blog to reflect the person that I am today.

For weeks I had stayed late at night in finding templates that would suit my Blogger blog. I was able to find one. Al Otro Lado Del Sol template by Comparadisimo. It’s a dark but cute theme with colorful trains and puzzles. It’s really nice but I still did a lot of editing especially with the fonts and the 3-column footer.

I recently left my job as an analyst in a multinational company. This time I promised that I will get back to blogging. Being a girl who gets into frequent mood swings, I wanted to change my blog’s theme again. I want something white and simple, like that of the blog of the fashionista, Kim Jones. πŸ™‚ But I have already made a lot of changes with the template’s code and I am not in the mood to redo everything. Not now and not in the future.

I remembered I have wordpress-hosted blogs too. One is a private journal and the other one is just random pieces of my crazy self. I like using WordPress more than Blogger, but it doesn’t allow advertisements on blogs that are hosted for free. But still I made a decision to host this blog in wordpress instead, besides, this is just a place for my ideas and daily ramblings. It won’t really need ads. πŸ™‚

So here it is. Previous posts from Blogger have been transferred here. I love the Tags and Categories functionality because with Blogger these are just the same and you can’t add subcategories. And finally, I have found a sweet minimalist theme that exactly describe Lunebelle, my alter ego. πŸ™‚

 

P.S. Please click on the speech bubble below with a + sign to leave a comment. Click on the circle with a + sign to show the footer. And then it’s magic. πŸ™‚

People Change, So As Our Priorities Pt, 2

It’s been 3 years since I left blogging…
A lot have changed around here. I have changed.
I can’t describe the feeling of looking back at old posts. It’s like reading someone else’s mind. Well, I realize now the good thing about writing down your feelings and ideas. You get the chance to remember your old self.
There’s this one post from long ago, “People Change, So As Our Priorities“, that left me feeling bittersweet.
I wrote this 3 years ago, before I started working. Reading it again made me remember how I felt back then.
Now I’m feeling almost the same with how I felt when I wrote it – afraid and excited.
In the 3 years that I’d been gone, I almost forgot about most of the things that I used to do. I became too occupied with work, the new environment and the new people I’ve met. I was so giddy on my first months in the office. It was like, “whoa, I’m officially an office girl!”.
The first year was a bit hard. I was not earning much, but that wasn’t important because I like what I do. I’ve met new friends, I experienced parties, I learned how to drink tequila. ;p
I loved everything about my career. I was being recognized and I’ve gotten a number of company awards. That was the first time that I felt at home in a different place. Every year I got promoted and I saw myself being a team lead at the age of 25, and then a manager before I reach 30.
I am 23 now. I believe my visions are not impossible. I might even be promoted to Team Lead by next year…
But.
I’m beginning to change visions.
This whole year, I was carrying a baggage – the terrible feeling of going each day to work and wishing that you don’t have to. My work is VERY stressful. We talk to clients, we provide them the services they need. We have to please them every time. I wasn’t feeling the stress at first because I thought that I like this. I LOVE this. I’m a high performer. And I can now buy the things that I never had before.
When I was promoted last year as an Analyst, I started to doubt. Do I still want this? Do I still want to lead? Do I still want to manage?
Yes I’m earning more than most of my classmates in college.. but I feel like I’m missing a huge part in my life. There was the time when I had to work on a midshift, that’s from 3pm to 1am. I was always lacking sleep and so tired the whole week that I can only afford to sleep on the weekend. I’ve handled different types of clients, from the kindest to the fiercest. I had cried a number of times just because I was so tired of pleasing everyone.
I was so sad, and one can obviously see that because I’m not the type of person who’s good in pretending. I was sad not only because I was so stressed out, but because my visions of my future are becoming dimmer and dimmer, until they became black.
For the past months, I’ve been through a lot of coaching and counseling. Most of them would say that I’ve come this far and that I should not give up. I’m one of the luckiest persons when it comes to opportunities. The managers and the leads that I’ve worked with have gone panicky when I said that I was resigning last August. They don’t want me to go. And I appreciate that thought very much. For some people, they would have just easily approved resignation without a doubt. So I decided to stay.
To help me overcome demotivation and get me back on track, I was given less stressful tasks. My current client is very understanding. She even requested me to be part of her team.
But then I still feel like something is not right. There had been signs that told me to go but I ignored because I’m thinking that maybe all of these will all just pass. Maybe next year will be better…
I am afraid and I’m sad about giving up my career. If I leave all of these, where will I go next? There are no ideas coming to my mind because this is all I know. I couldn’t find the answer because I lost the light that’s leading me to my dream…

if we wait until we're ready, we'll be waiting for the rest of our lives

Last week, I talked to my current manager and the primary thing that he asked is what’s basically causing my disengagement? I said I don’t know, maybe I don’t want this anymore. I don’t want office work anymore. And then I didn’t have to explain myself because he has already mentioned all the things that I’ve been thinking about, but I wasn’t sure if those are the right things to do. He said that I’m young and I shouldn’t stress myself out with over-thinking. I should explore and enjoy the world. I should do all the things that I want to do. He said that I wouldn’t want to think about all of these when I reach 30 and regret the times that I let slip away. I should take a break, think of what I really want to do. If I had to resign, then I should resign. And when the time comes that I realize that I want to go back, I can always come back. He encouraged me not to be afraid, and if I’m only thinking about financial consequences, the happiness that material things can give me is just temporary. What my heart is saying is what’s more important.
Hearing him say these things made me smile. I couldn’t agree more. The following day, brilliant ideas started to light up in my mind, like real light bulbs. That was the first time in months that I felt excited.
I want to blog again. I want to start a business, a small business. And then this morning I could see myself again, years from now. πŸ™‚
Maybe that’s the way life’s designed. Sometimes, you have to let go of the things that you want to get what you deserve. I know it’s still a long way and I haven’t even got to the middle of my journey, but I know I can do this. I was able to get through hard times before, I can do it again now. πŸ™‚

People Change, So As Our Priorities

Isn’t it nice to just sit and relax in a cozy coffee shop, chat with some friends, and have a look at everything and everyone around you?
In a few days i don’t know if i’ll still be able to do that.
It has been a month now since my schooling life ended, and here I am, wasting time.
With life going on like this, money problems here and there, I should really be anxious to get a job.
Don’t get me wrong, I am really anxious.
But…
You know the thought that comes to mind sometimes…
I want to have a break. I mean, to just rest for a while. enjoy the day without worrying about anything.
Before graduation, I was so excited of enjoying the summer. I kept on thinking that once school is over, I’ll have control of my time, sleep all day, go to the mall, internet ’til dawn….
After graduation, I am able to do these things, but I am still stressed out as ever. I am worried about getting a job.
Two days ago, I had my very first taste of a coffee jelly as a treat from my friend’s birthday. She can be lovely at times. that girl. πŸ™‚
She’s been filling me in with stories of how city life is lately.
Not that I have no knowledge of what a city looks like at all.
I’ve been on a city a lot of times, let me tell you. πŸ™‚
But this time, it’s different.
I am actually going to live in a city.
For twenty years, I’ve been living in a province.
okay, I live in a province, but we have malls and establishments here too, so I am not that girl who wears long skirts and picks apples from a tree.
I’m not saying a thing but my friend knows what i’m thinking.
It’s being excited and afraid at the same time.
I know I can cope up. But there’s just a lot of things that i’ll miss here.
I’ll miss living like a princess. I’ll miss the fresher air. I’ll miss the peace and quiet. I’ll miss my mother.
I’ve been living and sleeping beside her ever since and I’m dreading the day that I’ll finally go and sleep in a different place. Yes, I am a mama’s girl. πŸ™‚
Once I find a job, I’ll have lots of responsibilities. and one of the things that I hate is responsibility.
I believe that my friend really does empathize with me. there is this thing she said one time in the conversation that I have already thought about a lot of times these past few months.
She said this, “When I was in high school, all I thought about was how to accomplish a homework. Now, I’m thinking about the real world.”
All I can do is smile and think, “so people change and so as our priorities.”
She’s absolutely right.
Once I find a job, I’ll have to help my sister pay rent, electric and water bills and food. I’ll have to think about how I’ll survive on my own.
I want to help my mom. I want to give her everything she needs. I don’t want her to work anymore. I want her to sleep early at night and enjoy a nice cup of coffee in the morning. I want to buy her a complete set of make up, bags and different scents of perfumes. I’ll buy her pretty and comfortable dresses. I’ll pay the house helpers for her…
I may be doing nothing for now, looks like thinking about nothing, but these are what I want to do in my life.
And in one week, I’ll have a start.
***
I am reading another Sophie Kinsella book, it’s called Undomestic Goddess.
Sometimes I wonder about coincidences. is there really such a thing?
Maybe just great timing.
The book is saying something about different paths.
One is the way to your dream and the other is the way to your happiness.

Remembering the Hits of Alanis Morissette

One afternoon just about some time last week, I heard a very distinctive song while having a stroll in the mall. I asked my friend if she knows the title of that song. but she didn’t. I know it’s a song that I heard a lot of times before…
I just couldn’t remember.
I kept on thinking about that mysterious song until the following day.
I remembered Crystal Bowersox from American Idol singing it on her first performance as part of the final 24.
The rhythm is the same and so as the voice of the original singer. So I googled Crystal.
Hand in My Pocket by Alanis Morissette.
No. That wasn’t it.
But I really believed that was the song that I’m looking for. 😦

To my frustration, I forgot the tune of the song.

I tried and tried to recall until it felt like my head is splitting.

And presto! I suddenly remembered the chorus out of the blue.

So I searched the internet for some of the lines that I was able to remember.

The song’s not appearing on searches.

Some other songs kept on popping onΒ my screen. I know how search engines work. Just type a word or phrase and what you’re looking for will show up. But it just wouldn’t show!

If only I searched for the singer of Crystal’s song choice earlier, I could have found the song earlier.

It was indeed by Alanis Morissette. It’s called Ironic.

You can call me desperate because I actually listened to each of her songs until I found that hard-to-find song.

Why was I not able to search for the lyrics?

Because I didn’t hear the lines well and so I entered a different lyric.

So what’s with that song?

I don’t know. I just like it. πŸ™‚

And I like most of the songs in this album.

Jagged Little Pill is the third studio album by singer-songwriter Alanis Morissette.
The album is considered one of the most successful albums of all time.
(So that’s the reason why I heard her songs a lot of times when I was young.)

Each song says something about life and love. Of how sometimes you rise and then fall, and how you’ll learn to accept it.

  1. “All I Really Want” – 4:44
  2. “You Oughta Know” – 4:09
  3. “Perfect” – 3:07
  4. Hand In My Pocket” – 3:41
  5. “Right Through You”Β – 2:55
  6. “Forgiven” – 5:00
  7. You Learn” – 3:59
  8. Head Over Feet” – 4:27
  9. “Mary Jane” – 4:40
  10. Ironic” – 3:49
  11. “Not the Doctor” – 3:47
  12. “Wake Up” – 4:53

For the long years that she’s been in the industry, I am a fan of hers now.
I haven’t heard of any other artist who can play the harmonica that fantastic. (except Crystal Bowersox, of course.) πŸ™‚

Where’s My Blog???

i’ve been receiving questions from email to twitter on what happened to my old blog.
well, it was deleted.
here’s the reason:
i didn’t check my mail and the blog for a few days. i wouldn’t even know that i can no longer have access to my blog if i didn’t check my yahoo mail. one of the messages was from moonlight, with the subject asking what happened to my blog.
i then knew that my fear has come true.
we all know that a lot of copyrighted materials are all over the net, and that further distributing them is prohibited. (i know that, i’m just so stubborn.)
http://www.emocutez.com
i must admit i’m addicted to downloading free stuffs from the internet. (and you wouldn’t find out about my blog if you’re not.)
http://www.emocutez.com
so after reading the message, i checked on my gmail and found the notification from blogger.
 
(click on the image to read the content of the message)
after that was another message,
We’d like to inform you that we’ve received another complaint regarding your blog (http://colorsandharmony.blogspot.com/). Upon review of your account, we’ve noted that your blog has repeatedly violated Blogger’s Terms of Service (http://www.blogger.com/terms.g). Given that we’ve provided you with several warnings of these violations and advised you of our policy towards repeat infringers, we’ve been forced to remove your blog.
Thank you for your understanding.
Sincerely,
The Blogger Team
i wasn’t surprised, actually. i’m not even that disappointed. maybe a little sad, because that blog had been with me for two years. i just wished they gave me more time to update the blog, given that the first message was only 24 minutes earlier than the next.
well, i can tell that to blogger, but i thought not.
the truth is, i’m quite getting lazy of catching up with requests and i’m very busy these days. (graduation is coming!)
http://www.emocutez.com
i thought, maybe i’ll just start over.
so now, i won’t be finding ebooks for you. maybe i would. i don’t know, it depends…
i maybe sharing some books from time to time, but definitely not the new ones, specially those with strict copyright restrictions.
if the book that you want is quite old and if you really think that it’s interesting, then i may post it here.
i prefer classics, or anything that we’ll surely love.
http://www.emocutez.com
so that’s it.
i hope you’ll still continue to visit this little place of mine.
(and i hope you were able to download as much ebooks while they last!)
here are some of the ebooks:

password: aenid
okay. i’m stubborn. πŸ™‚