My Make-up Journey Officially Starts Now

This post originally started with the reason on why I got myself to the mall yesterday to do a little shopping. I kinda got carried away with babbling that my introduction turned into 5 paragraphs. 5 paragraphs that are completely not related with make-up. So, I decided to just delete them all, but I didn’t want to waste the one and half hour of typing them so I thought of putting them in another post. If you like to read my non-related babbling, then here it is.

Seeing my purchase got me inspired. I found a new love in make-up and I want to learn more about it, like all of it. I want to document every bit of the learning process so I thought of adding a new category in my blog about beauty. I believe that doing this will help keep the motivation I need to pursue my new dream. Aside from that, I’d been thinking what else to write on this blog that will make it interesting, aside from babbling. I figured a beauty topic is a lot more interesting than a crappy day topic.

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Here are some of the items I bought from the mall yesterday. I bought 3 make-up brushes and a replacement for my favorite concealer. I can’t go out without a concealer and I’ve decided long ago that a concealer is an essential part of my existence. I also planned on buying a BB cream but luckily my business partner offered to sell me her pretty BB cream for one third of the original price that was used only twice and directly bought from Korea because she said that it didn’t suit her skin. So now I got a pretty BB cream. Happy.

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New make-up tools
MISSHA Signature Complete BB Cream
The very pretty MISSHA Signature Real Complete BB Cream
ELF Professional Brushes
Eye shadow Brush, Blending Brush and Powder Brush by ELF

I forgot to take a photo of my favorite concealer and I’m no longer in the mood to get it from my make up pouch, snap a photo and do another picture editing. I’m just lazy, really, no special reasons. I’ll do it another day, promise, when there’s a new make-up post. Anyway, the concealer is also by ELF, it’s the ELF All Over Cover Stick. I’ve been using this brand since 2010 because their products blends perfectly with the skin. I’ve been told so many times already that my face looks flawless, like I don’t have any make-up on, when in reality, my face’s skin tone is not even and I have some pimple marks that are destroying my dream of a clean and clear skin.

I bought 3 ELF make-up brushes only, just the essential ones. I wanted to buy all of them but didn’t because, of course, I’m unemployed and I don’t have enough savings to satisfy my shopping fantasies. Previously, I only had a powder brush and that brush needed replacing because it has become frizzy after I tried to wash it. I saw the other types of brushes and thought that since I strongly want to pursue a career in make-up, then maybe I should start by practicing the basic eye make-up techniques that I learned online. Hence, the eye shadow and blending brush.

The brushes in white are cheaper compared to the black one. I guess it has something to do with the bristles. The black one has softer and thicker bristles which I think would last longer. I’m not completely happy with the powder brush that I bought. The bristles are rough, like it’s an old stock so I think I wouldn’t be using it. There’s an equivalent of the powder brush with the black handle though, and I plan to buy one when I get a job. The black powder brush feels so soft when brushed to the face and it gives you the assurance that your face wouldn’t get irritated because of the silky soft feeling. I know because my business partner owns one and she lent me her make-up kit when I did the make-up of my niece on her graduation.

Now we go the the BB cream. Yesterday, I sent a text message to my partner asking where she bought her BB cream. It was included in the make-up kit she lent me before. I used it three times last April and I liked how my face didn’t get too oily even after a whole day without touch ups, compared to when I only had powder on. I haven’t heard of or seen the brand before. I was planning on buying a different brand in case we don’t have it here in the Philippines or if I wouldn’t be able to afford it. So when she told me she’s selling it for 500 pesos, I immediately agreed.

Turns out, MISSHA has outlets here in the PH after all. I just need to do a research on that because I definitely would want to see their other products in person.

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I tried a simple party look this morning but I didn’t dare post a picture of myself here. The eye make-up was nice, a glittery bronze and dark brown combination. I don’t have much choices with the lip color as I only own three shades: a matte red, coral pink and a frosted light pink. I went for the light pink at first but it didn’t quite match with my eye make-up so I dabbed a little red. The overall look was alright but I felt like it doesn’t suit me. I think I’m more of like a pretty in pink girl. Ha ha. I wanted a different shade of pink but since I do not have any, I’m adding it to my shopping list. And a mascara by the way, and the black ELF powder brush, a bronzer, eye primer, NAKED by Urban Decay palette, oh and SIGMA brushes.. OK, the list goes on.

Just another crappy day

I had quite a gloomy day yesterday.

There’s really nothing wrong with the day, actually. It’s just that there are some days when I don’t feel happy. Because I’m an over-thinker. And yesterday is one of the days when all thoughts and ideas that popped in my head since 2013 decided to visit my not so little head. What happens when all these thoughts swim in your head? You get overwhelmed. And depressed.

Well, what really caused my bad mood is the want to go out and go somewhere far away. You know those times when you just want to run away without any idea where you’re going? I wanted to do that yesterday. I wanted to go to somewhere where no one knows about me and stay there for a while. A month maybe or a week. I just wanted to be away and clear my head.

It’s not really hard to do you know. I’ve done it before. Last year, I checked in alone in a hotel for the first time in my life and then the following day I went somewhere I know but didn’t really know how to get there. I totally relied on Google Map. And yeah, I was able to go home alive after two days so I think it’s reliable. Just don’t rely on it too much. I had to find a coffee shop for almost an hour, walking endlessly until the people started staring because they realized I was lost but just didn’t dare to offer help because I was totally playing it cool like I totally knew the place, but they knew I didn’t because I probably didn’t look like I lived there and I was carrying a huge backpack on my back, just to learn after having the courage to finally ask someone for directions that the coffee shop that I was looking for is a few kilometers away from where I’d been looking.

So, to cut my long story of a crappy day short, I couldn’t go anywhere because I don’t have money. Every time I’d try to do a root cause analysis of my issues, the answer to all why’s boil down to MONEY, and to be able to have money, I need to find a new job. But I don’t want to find a new job. OK, I know I’m making my own problems here. I do need to find a new job, whatever that might be.

Because I just wanted to get out of the house, I went to the mall and spent more than 600 pesos off my savings and I don’t regret it. I think a girl’s one cure for an emotional day, aside from ice cream, is shopping. They say money can’t buy happiness. Yes, while that may be true in general, I think that buying something for myself can make me happy at least, whatever it is. Because it makes me think that I did had a crappy day, but I surely haven’t run out of reasons to be happy.

The Adventures of Lunebelle: A Fan of Lindsey Kelk

I just finished reading “I Heart Vegas” by Lindsey Kelk. It’s the 4th installment of her “I Heart Series“. Well, if you would click on the link you will be directed to Goodreads where the summary for each book is posted. I’m kind of lazy to put up my own summary and by the way, I’m not good with summaries. Every time I’d attempt to make one I just end up babbling that about two to three paragraphs of the “summary” will consist of non-related content. This isn’t supposed to be a book review any way. So yeah, I won’t tell you a summary.

I came across one of Ms Kelk’s works sometime in March. I can’t remember if it’s before or after my birthday. I just wanted something light, cheery and cheesy to read after reading the Fifty Shades trilogy for the second time. I have always been a hopeless romantic and I am still wishing that one a day the right guy would just show up and and sweep me off my feet.

So, anyway, I saw The Single Girl’s To Do List in Goodreads and thought of giving it a try. I loved the book so much that after finishing the story I read it again two days later. Last week, I decided to try the “I Heart Series”. Mainly because I’m already getting bored about worrying about my online shop and partly because I want to recharge my inspiration level that was almost going down to zero.

The books are not really one of kind. Just like any other chic lits, they’re hilarious, romantic and supposed to give you a smile. But what I do “love” about them is that I could almost see my life in them. Well, not really the drinking booze first thing in the morning or the shopping til you drop part. Firstly, I’m allergic to alcohol. There has been no single event where my face didn’t turned red when I drank a beer, vodka or tequila. It’s been one of my fantasies to party til dawn though. Not that I have never experienced it. But still, I would like to do that more often. As for the shopping part, I would absolutely want to try buying an expensive lingerie at least once in my life, but right now I am jobless and moneyless and I can’t get a credit card even though I had already tried.

So, here’s the part where my life is kind of related to the story. Four years ago, I experienced my major heartbreak. And that heartbreak led me to moving out of my lovely and comfortable home and then living in an apartment in an ever so busy city and working for a company that helped me bring out the best in me. It was awesome. I was in a totally new place, with totally new friends and totally new life. I learned to fix myself up and developed a love for clothes and shoes and bags. It’s been one of the best days of my life, or years. It was awesome until I got tired of working in the office for almost twelve hours everyday. I had always thought that there is no way of leaving a job that was my dream job. But then I realized that there is also no way of doing a thing and staying in a place where you’re no longer happy. I wanted to breathe and I wanted to try something new. Something that I could do the whole day without having to drag myself just to be able to do it.

I mentioned before on my previous post that I keep different sorts of lists. To-do lists, shopping lists, dreams lists.. And this is why I smiled when I learned that the protagonist in The Single Girl’s To-Do List also had this obsession on lists. And that her mother is a fan of the zodiac signs. Did I mention before that I am a fan of the zodiac? No, I think not. But yeah, I am and I am a Pisces.

Reading the ‘I Heart Series”, “I Heart New York” especially, led me to thinking about my life. I am already past the “Undomestic Goddess by Sophie Kinsella” part of my life where I was stuck in a crossroad and had to choose between a fast paced life and a simple but happy life. I left my job months ago and now I’m stuck in my lovely and comfortable home. For five months, I’d been thinking what I would really like to do with my life. I no longer want to wake up at 6a.m everyday to prepare for my 9a.m job. I have always loved colors and vibrancy. My most favorite task on former job is creating PowerPoint presentations where I could choose and design layouts and color schemes. And so Rachel Summers, the girl in the Single Girl, being a make up artist, inspired me to enroll in a make up school as soon as I can already pay for it. My new found love for make up actually started when I was asked to stand as make up artist during a graduation. I was more than happy to try the new skills that I learned from Youtube and even more happy to stay in a classy hotel for free. On the other hand, Angela Clark, I Heart’s leading lady, is a writer, her boyfriend a lead singer of a band, her best friend a hotel concierge turned stylist, all do not worry about waking up at 6 in the morning to get to and stay in the office for twelve hours. I would like to be a stylist one day. I have this friend, who also happen to be my business partner, would text me sometimes to ask what outfits she would wear in the office for the week. And then I’ll even be happier to instruct her what and what not to wear.

After reading these books, I came up with new ambitions and plans, like becoming an entrepreneur (already started this), a make up artist, stylist, blogger (kinda but not quite yet), and photographer. Well, I thought about the photographer part and I sort of realized that carrying heavy equipment every photo shoot is not so girly. So maybe not a professional photographer then, more of like a photo blogger really.

I’d like to think that everything could just be so easy like one, two, three. Angela Clark, a full-blooded Brit, just went to New York and had a whole new life. I already did that anyway. Not move to New York of course, but running away and finding a new life in a different city. It’s just that maybe I got too excited at first and now all the excitement has worn off. And that I am stuck at home with no idea how to restart given that I am jobless and moneyless and without a credit card. I have thought of finding a new job by the way, if you’re going to suggest that. It’s basically the most sensible thing that one would be able to think of at times like these. I can’t go on “vacation” all my life surely? It might be OK to wake up early (since everyday I keep on promising myself that I’ll be a morning person) and stay at work for twelve hours, as long as the “work” would involve me having heart-to-heart talks with my creative side. I have decided months ago that I am not a robot. And I surely wouldn’t waste more years of my life doing something that I don’t specially love.

This afternoon, after I got to the last page of I Heart Vegas, a thought came to mind. Maybe the city where I used to live is not the right place for me. Maybe this place that I am calling my home is not the right place for me. Maybe there is some place out there that is the right place for me and I haven’t found it yet. And maybe if I stopped hibernating in this lovely and comfortable home of mine and just go out there, get myself connected, then I would have greater chances of being able to do all my heart’s desires.

 

So Ms Lindsey Kelk, yes I’m talking to you even though there is only very little possibility that you might stumble upon this blog. I would just like you to know that I am now a fan of yours. Really, I still think it’s awesome that you’ve mentioned lists and zodiac signs in your books. Will you believe that a guy friend of mine, who so used to believe that horoscopes are fake, now checks our horoscopes everyday because of my influence? He even has this compatibility app installed on his phone and talks about zodiac signs personalities a lot more often than me.

What I’m really trying to say is, your books inspire me. And I’ve believed long ago that there’s no such thing as coincidence. Finding about your books during this point in my life is not just timely, maybe it’s what they call fate. Maybe you’re my hero. Maybe Angela Clark, or Rachel Summers.

I am not saying that I would like to try everything that the books told, like waking up naked next to a stranger. But I strongly think that what’s really missing in my life is passion, thrill and fun. There are times when I would just like to go crazy and do stupid stuff. And I would want to do those stuff with crazy, stupid friends. But most of all, I would like to believe that one day, I will meet my own Alex or Dan, a super hot but not so super perfect guy, who’s definitely a Cancer or a Scorpio, whom I could share my passion, my dreams and my life.

World’s Greatest Procrastinator

This is how I would define myself these days.

You see, I have this daily list of things to do that I write on my yellow Starbucks planner. I guess I developed the habit of making lists 2 years ago because I had plenty of tasks on my former job. But since I am already unemployed, my day would basically consist of waking up at 7, 8 or 9 in the morning, play Candy Crush and this game called The Tribez, eat, drink coffee, play Candy Crush and the Tribez again, nap a little (sometimes not), check Instagram, Facebook and email and see if our online shop is making any progress, follow celebrities and style bloggers, answer a few orders and inquiries, play again.. until the day is over and I have to sleep again for the night.

Yeah, my life is kinda boring.

This is not actually how I envisioned myself five months ago when I left my job. At the start of the year, I was very ecstatic, thought about lots of plans and dreams and had them listed down. But as the months passed by I’m getting lazy and lazy that I just want to lie down and play Candy Crush. My problem is that at most times I think of too many ideas and things to do, however, when I am already about to start doing them one by one, I get distracted by other unimportant things, like checking Instagram and Facebook, and playing Candy Crush. Yeah, I am so addicted to Candy Crush that right after typing the title of this post, I resumed playing the game and consumed all my lives, before I really started writing.

Going back to my lists, I have written down some to do’s, some even dated since January, that I am not able to do until now. Like writing a blog post. And doing my manicure and pedicure. If there is one sure thing that I’m sure I’m very good at – it’s procrastinating.

I feel bad about this ugly habit. I was not able to continue my 365 Days of Picture Writing project anymore. I stopped in February I think, I don’t know. I still had these pictures from February that I haven’t been able to post anymore. I kept on promising that I would catch up but then I’m no longer able to take pictures and now it’s May. I’m still thinking on how would I be able to continue the project. Should I just start again this month? But then it wouldn’t be 365 days anymore. Or should I just wait until next year? Oh, it’s bad right? I know.

Maybe what gave me the inspiration to write today are the two cups of coffee that I drank since this morning.

By the way, I changed my theme to Manifest. It’s equally simple and minimalist as my previous theme. While I still like the “Spun” theme, I think it’s a bit complex to navigate, especially if one has just seen my blog for the first time. For instance, the widgets are hidden as well as the “leave a comment” link that you have to click an almost invisible button to make them appear. So I settled for “Manifest”. Besides, I have liked this theme since the time when my blog was still hosted by Blogger. I tried applying it then but Blogger (or the template, or I, whichever) couldn’t make the fonts appear as I would like them to appear. Too much HTML editing needed that it had consumed too much of my time and effort already that I just gave up and switched to WordPress.

OK. So this post is a bit long already. I guess I need to develop my summary skills. After I’ve published this, I plan to take new pictures of our new set of dresses to post on our online shop. I you happen to read this not so meaningful post and you happen to reside in the Philippines, I hope you would consider checking our shop via Facebook or Instagram. Or if you are a guy and you have a wife or a girlfriend who’s highly into fashion, you might want to be extra romantic and give her a gift? I swear we’re legit. 🙂

P.S. I might play Candy Crush again after publishing this post. If you’re curious on what level I am at right now, it’s Level 566.