People Change, So As Our Priorities

Isn’t it nice to just sit and relax in a cozy coffee shop, chat with some friends, and have a look at everything and everyone around you?
In a few days i don’t know if i’ll still be able to do that.
It has been a month now since my schooling life ended, and here I am, wasting time.
With life going on like this, money problems here and there, I should really be anxious to get a job.
Don’t get me wrong, I am really anxious.
You know the thought that comes to mind sometimes…
I want to have a break. I mean, to just rest for a while. enjoy the day without worrying about anything.
Before graduation, I was so excited of enjoying the summer. I kept on thinking that once school is over, I’ll have control of my time, sleep all day, go to the mall, internet ’til dawn….
After graduation, I am able to do these things, but I am still stressed out as ever. I am worried about getting a job.
Two days ago, I had my very first taste of a coffee jelly as a treat from my friend’s birthday. She can be lovely at times. that girl. πŸ™‚
She’s been filling me in with stories of how city life is lately.
Not that I have no knowledge of what a city looks like at all.
I’ve been on a city a lot of times, let me tell you. πŸ™‚
But this time, it’s different.
I am actually going to live in a city.
For twenty years, I’ve been living in a province.
okay, I live in a province, but we have malls and establishments here too, so I am not that girl who wears long skirts and picks apples from a tree.
I’m not saying a thing but my friend knows what i’m thinking.
It’s being excited and afraid at the same time.
I know I can cope up. But there’s just a lot of things that i’ll miss here.
I’ll miss living like a princess. I’ll miss the fresher air. I’ll miss the peace and quiet. I’ll miss my mother.
I’ve been living and sleeping beside her ever since and I’m dreading the day that I’ll finally go and sleep in a different place. Yes, I am a mama’s girl. πŸ™‚
Once I find a job, I’ll have lots of responsibilities. and one of the things that I hate is responsibility.
I believe that my friend really does empathize with me. there is this thing she said one time in the conversation that I have already thought about a lot of times these past few months.
She said this, “When I was in high school, all I thought about was how to accomplish a homework. Now, I’m thinking about the real world.”
All I can do is smile and think, “so people change and so as our priorities.”
She’s absolutely right.
Once I find a job, I’ll have to help my sister pay rent, electric and water bills and food. I’ll have to think about how I’ll survive on my own.
I want to help my mom. I want to give her everything she needs. I don’t want her to work anymore. I want her to sleep early at night and enjoy a nice cup of coffee in the morning. I want to buy her a complete set of make up, bags and different scents of perfumes. I’ll buy her pretty and comfortable dresses. I’ll pay the house helpers for her…
I may be doing nothing for now, looks like thinking about nothing, but these are what I want to do in my life.
And in one week, I’ll have a start.
I am reading another Sophie Kinsella book, it’s called Undomestic Goddess.
Sometimes I wonder about coincidences. is there really such a thing?
Maybe just great timing.
The book is saying something about different paths.
One is the way to your dream and the other is the way to your happiness.

Remembering the Hits of Alanis Morissette

One afternoon just about some time last week, I heard a very distinctive song while having a stroll in the mall. I asked my friend if she knows the title of that song. but she didn’t. I know it’s a song that I heard a lot of times before…
I just couldn’t remember.
I kept on thinking about that mysterious song until the following day.
I remembered Crystal Bowersox from American Idol singing it on her first performance as part of the final 24.
The rhythm is the same and so as the voice of the original singer. So I googled Crystal.
Hand in My Pocket by Alanis Morissette.
No. That wasn’t it.
But I really believed that was the song that I’m looking for. 😦

To my frustration, I forgot the tune of the song.

I tried and tried to recall until it felt like my head is splitting.

And presto! I suddenly remembered the chorus out of the blue.

So I searched the internet for some of the lines that I was able to remember.

The song’s not appearing on searches.

Some other songs kept on popping onΒ my screen. I know how search engines work. Just type a word or phrase and what you’re looking for will show up. But it just wouldn’t show!

If only I searched for the singer of Crystal’s song choice earlier, I could have found the song earlier.

It was indeed by Alanis Morissette. It’s called Ironic.

You can call me desperate because I actually listened to each of her songs until I found that hard-to-find song.

Why was I not able to search for the lyrics?

Because I didn’t hear the lines well and so I entered a different lyric.

So what’s with that song?

I don’t know. I just like it. πŸ™‚

And I like most of the songs in this album.

Jagged Little Pill is the third studio album by singer-songwriter Alanis Morissette.
The album is considered one of the most successful albums of all time.
(So that’s the reason why I heard her songs a lot of times when I was young.)

Each song says something about life and love. Of how sometimes you rise and then fall, and how you’ll learn to accept it.

  1. “All I Really Want” – 4:44
  2. “You Oughta Know” – 4:09
  3. “Perfect” – 3:07
  4. Hand In My Pocket” – 3:41
  5. “Right Through You”Β – 2:55
  6. “Forgiven” – 5:00
  7. You Learn” – 3:59
  8. Head Over Feet” – 4:27
  9. “Mary Jane” – 4:40
  10. Ironic” – 3:49
  11. “Not the Doctor” – 3:47
  12. “Wake Up” – 4:53

For the long years that she’s been in the industry, I am a fan of hers now.
I haven’t heard of any other artist who can play the harmonica that fantastic. (except Crystal Bowersox, of course.) πŸ™‚